I love music. When I'm alone at work I've got Pandora on all the time. I listen to a random mix of everything. Recently Lady Antebellum's song from Act of Valor, I Was Here, has been speaking to me. You can listen to it here http://youtu.be/BosXKvWTK3g
The chorus says what I have felt all my life.
I wanna do something that matters
Say something different
Something that sets the whole world on its ear
I wanna do something better
With the time I've been given
And I wanna try
To touch a few hearts in this life
Leaving nothing less
Than something that says "I was here"
When I was in high school doing something different was going to a college where I didn't know anyone. I could have taken the safe path and gone where all my friends went, but I needed something new and different. When I began college I was focused on going to law school. I thought that would be a way I could help others, but I later realized they only get to work with what law enforcement gives them. If I really wanted to make a difference I needed to get into law enforcement.
I was scared when I started applying for jobs as a cop. I was a 125 pound college cheerleader. I was also worried I was wasting my education on a job that didn't require any college, but something continued to pull me towards this career. I really felt like I could make a difference, and if I let my fears of being completely physically unqualified get in the way I would never get to make that difference.
I hired on at the first agency that offered me a job, and on day 1 I was worried I was in over my head. Everyone was nice, but nearly everyone was male. They were all bigger, and had stories of the fights they had been in. I rode with an officer for a few hours that day, and I had to pull the seat out of my rear after flying to a fight call. There was no way I could drive like that and not wreck, but I had to stick this one out. I can't even explain the force other than I know God played a huge part in keeping me there that day.
I've been in Law Enforcement for 8 years now. I was a Patrol Officer for 2 years, and I have been a Detective for the last 6. Looking at my career I know there is still lots more ahead of me, but I would like to think I have left a mark. I hope there are victims that appreciate the work I have done. At only 30 I have been the lead investigator on an attempted murder, lead crime scene on another murder, worked more child cases than anyone wants to know and taken a few drugs off the street. Some days I don't think I have done much with my life, but when I look at what I have done at only 30 I'm pretty pleased with the mark I am making. I know there is more ahead of me. I'm only about 1/3 of the way through my career.
I haven't talked much about my job in past posts, but it is something I am proud of. I have worked my butt off to leave my mark in the world. I have found my passion, and I will put my everything into succeeding at what I do.
This is my something that matters, something different and something that will touch hearts. My career is what I will use to say "I was here"!